WHY? That’s one word that keeps on running on my mind. I don’t want to question Gods plan for us. But I know for a fact I want to ask him lots of questions. And for a start I want to ask him WHY us? WHY my dad? Of all people why my dad? He doesn’t deserve this. He’s been good I know he’s not perfect but why him? For all you know I’ve just got a terrible news today. And I’m so sad. I have this mixed feeling of emotions on trying to understand and trying to figure out on what went wrong. I want to cry and at the same time I want to be mad at someone and shout out all my anger and pain! But what can these things do?! It won’t help me to be strong. I am mad at HIM but at the same time I got no one but HIM to hold on. To have faith in HIM and trust HIM for our trials as a family, my only wish is for Him to give my family good health. I don’t wish much and I wont wish for anything more. And I can set aside my personal happiness I just want my dad to be healthy. Although it’s not yet confirmed yet what his doings. Still I’m afraid. And please help me pray for my dad.